Cubician II
Cubician II is finally live on all major streaming platforms: Spotify, Apple Music, YouTube, Amazon Music, and many more. It is also available for download for free on Bandcamp.
This short album is entirely old music that I have taken time to polish up. Here’s some information about the songs:
Liquid Starlight
Liquid Starlight was originally uploaded to my old Soundcloud on 2014-03-01 (over a decade ago!). I originally created all the synthesizer sounds using ZynAddSubFX in LMMS, with liberal use of a specific parameter that allowed for randomization of different wave harmonics per-note. This helped each note sound slightly different, which helped the synth sound like water droplets. The version of ZynAddSubFX embedded in LMMS has the most convoluted user interface I have ever laid eyes on, so I have no idea how to replicate this. I will update this post if I ever do.
If you dare, you can listen to an archive of that old version on Soundcloud.
Cured More than The Malady
This song was originally released on YouTube on 2017-08-29. At the time, I was deeply unhappy with my character, and was trying to fix myself using religion. This approach was deeply flawed, and in an attempt to “cure” all my flaws, I ended up rejecting my entire identity instead. When I initially released the song, I understood that this was harmful, but thought that it was necessary for my personal growth, spiritual salvation, et cetera. Of course, that was all total nonsense, and after living like that for three years, I came to my senses and realized how unhealthy that mindset was. There is no “cure”, only empathy and hard work. I accept and love myself.
The original YouTube upload is available, but unlisted.
What If
The story behind this song is unfathomably cringe. When I was in high school, I had made friends with this girl, and we would eat lunch together and send each other tumblr posts. I was infatuated with what I now recognize was just gender envy (I wanted to look like her), but since I didn’t have the vocabulary for that at the time, I assumed my obsession was romantic attraction. I never did talk to her about any of this, and instead opted to just write this song and post it on my tumblr with no explanation.
The original tumblr post has been lost to time, but it was likely posted sometime around November 2016.
Serenity (Max’s Version)
The original version of Serenity was a much more energetic EDM-style track. I had written it for my romantic partner at the time, who went by a different name back then. They have changed a lot since I originally wrote Serenity, and so I changed their song too. Max’s Version is much gentler. I wish I was a gentler person back when Max knew me.
I do also plan on releasing a new take on the original EDM-style track, but that one isn’t quite ready yet. Perhaps it will be in Cubician III?
Serenity was originally uploaded to my old Soundcloud on 2015-03-18 according to Soundcloud, but I believe that is likely the date of a re-upload (something to do with Best of LMMS Vol. 2 maybe?). You can listen to an archive of that old version on Soundcloud.
Frostbite
I honestly don’t remember what I was thinking when I made this one. I did end up using it as the music for a weird Youtube video, Frostbite, several years later.
This song was originally known as Never To Be Found, and posted on y Soundcloud on 2014-03-07. You can listen to an archive of that old version on Soundcloud.
End Screen
This one has never actually been officially released on any platforms. I made it specifically for the last 20-ish seconds of some Youtube tutorials I was making at the time. This is the first time it’s been made available outside those videos.
Since I’ve never released the old version outside those Youtube videos, you’ll never know what it sounded like unless you know where to find those. Good luck!